"M" told me that i make her happy when we're together! We've only been friends for a few months. The whole eleven YEARS i was friends with my "one close neighbor" she never said anything like that to me. Boy, i really have been choosing the wrong friends...

Today the White Supremacist friend of my "one close neighbor" said hello and called me by name and called my dog by a nickname and tried to get my dog to come to her. My "one close neighbor" was with her. They're lifelong best friends. I told my "one close neighbor" two weeks ago that i need time and i want privacy from her. She doesn't know it's permanent. She knew better than to talk to me. I just walked on by without a word. I don't owe anything to people who have emotionally abused and gaslighted me.

I emailed the White Supremacist that she has lost the privilege of calling me by my first name. My real first name, which is not "Jane," is obscure and it is far too intimate to hear from the mouths of people i dislike. I said for her and all persons having to do with the condominium to call me by "Ms. MyLastName," which puts everyone on notice that our relationship is business-only, being that we are all partners in the ownership of the condominium corporation. I am severing all social ties with neighbors who i feel uneasy with, which is most of them.

I'm getting back to the first nine years of my residency here, when i did not know my neighbors, and did not desire to know them. I did not attend building meetings or social events. We have a big social event coming up next Saturday. It's a BBQ and outdoor movie. I burnt my ticket to it.

I was a lot less unhappy with my home before i started socializing with my neighbors and got so enmeshed with my "one close neighbor." The inequality of our relationship has always bothered me. Now i know why. She did not regard me as a friend, but merely as an object to manipulate, on behalf of HER BEST friend, the White Supremacist.

So that's that. It took a life-threatening accident to get everyone to show their true colors, but at least i know who everyone is at last, and what the specific nature of my relationship is with them. It was a tremendous ordeal, but it did clarify things, and force me to make changes for the better.