I’m so with you. I was on Adderall too and fairing better mentally/emotionally except people were concerned about the lack of appetite side effect and my eating disorder so I stopped taking it recently and, yeah, lack of appetite doesn’t cause my disordered eating—being a traumatized individual who thinks no matter how low the BMI she takes up too much space and resources does and punishment>/=love, now I’m just a shytshow and probably eat even less because I don’t know what time of day or what I should be doing half the time and dinner time comes and I stress that I didn’t get a thing done earlier when I was supposed to so I do that and say “fk it, no lunch, no dinner today I guess. That was easier than usual. Can’t have meal time anxiety if you’re too caught up in ADHD-inspired internal chaos to realize it’s mealtime.”

I am decent with memory, or not really but I have developed my own way of making sure I have reminders of the really important things everywhere and wear a watch that can notify me of a bunch of stuff. My issues with ADHD are more around hyperactivity/impulse and emotional control (and surprise surprise, I’ve had the word “hospital” for psych crisis situations brought up 4x since stopping it.)

Edit: actually 5 after this morning.