Haven't been really engaged here lately, though I posted a brief update in the ED sub last night I guess after the mention notification from Blueberrybook

but yeah, Friday night was bad.Saturday I felt like shyt. I didn't go to trail days. Just stayed home most the day other than a short trip to get a few things at a store I had a coupon for good for just that day.

Yesterday I tried doing laundry, but things came out of the washer like they came out of a pool and they came out the dryer wet as they should've coming out the washer. Next time I'm using the other floor's washer/dryer and seeing if that one's any better. My mom stopped by later in the day too and dropped off an extra fan she had. She was surprised at how cool it was in my studio (with one south-facing wall more window than wall when I don't have curtains, just blinds that don't fully go down, and no A/C). Like, yeah, when we had those week long power outages, you went to work where there was A/C while I figured out how to keep the house from getting sub freezing or over 100F depending on the season. I worked at an amusement park for five years and I've hiked some of the hardest trails in NH in not great weather (also meaning some of the hardest in the entire Northeast). I know how to deal with weather without dying.

I finished reading What My Bones Know yesterday and OMG what a great book. I don't think I've ever felt more seen in regards to trauma, reactions, therapy, reactions to therapy, etc..

I started reading Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail this morning. I'm at the library right now where it doesn't take effort to stay cool, haha, but I did make sure to unplug anything unnecessary and put the blankets in the windows and shut those as much as possible (last night I felt pathetic trying to open those windows. Like, it felt like more of a workout than my last 4k'er hike, and the past two times I've tried opening the window on the left side I've ended up cussing very loudly because my finger's have slipped and it hurt more than anything I've done scrambling).

I don't have time to respond to everyone but hugs to all. I'm keeping myself ignorant of whatever's happening but it sounds scary and people around here do in general seem on edge more than usual. I hope everyone stays safe physically and emotionally