My diagnosis is Bipolar II disorder. I have had it since childhood. I didn't get any meaningful help until I was in my 50s. I am now in my early 80s, and have been stable on medication for nearly 30 years. But I am considering telling my psychiatrist that I want to spend the next two years tapering off all my bipolar meds. The reason is, I used to have mystical/ecstatic experiences, but since medication, I do not have these anymore. I have joined a spiritual practice, and want to know God, and be able to pray sincerely. This is not a cult -- it doesn't have "one person" as leader, nor does it ask me for a lot of money. But I feel like I'm not able to pray sincerely because of the dulled emotions from my medication.

Is there anyone here who has successfully (with professional help, gradually) gotten off their meds?