I mean, I won’t say I successfully got off meds, but I learned while yes, I am very much bipolar, my bipolar is relatively tame compared to the severity of my CPTSD symptoms (or if you go by DSM and don’t believe CPTSD is it’s own beast, then the severity of the BPD, PTSD, ADHD, anorexia, and SUD in my charts to explain the very same symptoms).

I haven’t been on something considered a mood stabilizer in a few months, but have taken my Clonidine (for anxiety/sleep/ADHD stuff) and sporadically my Adderall (off it I’m emotionally dysregulated and chaotic to a dangerous point, and on it I have continued the weight loss trend I started months before trying it so on it they worry about the appetite suppressant effect so have skipped many doses to see if my trauma-induced eating disorder will be cured by stopping a med I started after relapsing). I have PRN diazepam I mainly use for sleep or HI/intense active SI.

If I sleep all is somewhat okay in the bipolar sense. I have had times this combo or not using this combo right has led to sleep issues that led to bipolar symptoms emerging, but out of the past 4 hospitalizations I’ve had (according to them) none of them were for bipolar episodes.