Happy birthday @LadyShadow! What a gorgeous picture of yourself!

@MuddyBoots You don't sound safe at all. I'm sorry your last hospitalization was so traumatic (mine was too), but it sounds at this point you need to be safe. We all care about you and don't want you to hurt yourself any more. Please do get some help. It may help not being psychotic and not fighting the hospital staff, so they have no reason to hold you down ie, go along with them no matter how stupid they sound, that's what I had to do last time to finally get out once I felt more stable and no longer psychotic and a danger to myself or anyone else. What I wonder muddy is what the h*ll is wrong with your mom if you look so bad and are a danger to yourself that she doesn't drive you straight to the psych ER and stay until you are admitted?! Because despite all my mom's passive-aggressive at times, she surely would do that with me even though I'm 47 years old now.