There is no way I would be able to stop taking my meds, especially antipsychotics.

When manic, especially before I was diagnosed and started meds, I also get mystical/ecstatic experiences. But, these have led me to horrible decisions that (when stable) showed me these were nothing more than my brain leading me in the wrong direction. It was an adjustment, and sometimes still is, to not have these be a regular part of my prayer life, but I'm glad they're gone so I know my prayer life is sincere and not just a figment of my bipolar disorder.