Couldn't sleep at all last night so
I hope my CM has learned I'm not getting anything out of treatment. I told them they are failing to support me and have no way of doing so, I told them how I got the eating disorder treatment directory through saying "fk the ACT on call I'm calling rapid response" and after using the filter on the directory they gave me to narrow down from 300+ places in the US to ones that accept NH residents on Medicare there were two--one telehealth clinic for Christian nationalists based out of Texas and one dietician in MA that specifically states she does NOT take Medicare or Medicaid but still somehow showed up.

But I am going to keep openly saying "fk those c--ts" in front of them (I literally threw up in their parking lot at like 3am today) so I found a Zoom eating disorder support group through no help from them (that's at like 9pm EST midweek so talking about food and mental shyt is going to be weird when I can hear my neighbors masturbate and fight most evenings--I hope my headphones I got for $0.75 at Walmart have the background filtering microphone).

My CM mentioned the PHP a few towns over--the one I had to remind her I have no transportation to and was denied getting into anyway for being "too acute," and she mentioned the IP place in another state (and how I got denied--for having "I'm not 5 minutes from death" tests 4/5 of the last times I had them done).

She asked if I understood why they tried to do the IEA, and I said it's because I know