I have a feeling my treatment team is trying to get me to realize they can't treat me and are giving me the following options although not indirectly (but these are what I see my options as being):

1) Continue "just" seeing them, being admitted to the hospital never more than a few months after the last stay until I come home from one admission or are about to go into an admission so defeated I (maybe at some point am successful in the attempt to?) die.

2) Ignore/do the opposite of everything they say that's either ridiculous or appalling ("take what's helpful and leave the rest" and most of it is not helpful), find my own "treatment plan" of outside support groups, books/memoirs of people healing from similar stuff, chatGPT, buying my own workbooks, doing my own research on ways to recover on your own, etc.

Is that something they intentionally did because they have a gut-feeling strong enough to risk my life that I would recover out of spite, or is that just the effect of inadequacy/incompetence?