I think my thing with the ophthalmologist is ending and I'm sad about it too. We had our thing for 38 days.

We've had plans to meet up for the past two weeks. He lives around 2h away from me.

The issue is that he always cancels our plans at the last minute. The first time was because he had an emergency shift to cover on his day off. This happens all the time so I accepted it. The second time I travelled 3/4 of the journey to him and he still didn't travel the 28 mins to see me and I went home without meeting him. Today we were supposed to meet at a train station. I went to bed checking if he would cancel at night, but he hadn't and had confirmed the 1pm time.

I messaged at 8.11 am today. Saying I hoped he'd come.

At 9.07 am he messaged saying when he'd book his ticket he'd let me know.

11.11 am He messaged saying there was a problems with the trainline and it was cancelled. So he couldn't come.

I took screenschots of the train timetable . None were cancelled and had good connections to my city. I told him he could have taken a bus, uber or taxi to the main train station then caught the connecting one. Then he apologized and said I was right, the truth was that he was in a depressive episode. He wasn't feeling good and generally wasn't most of the time.

I honestly believed that he would come today.

It's not him having depression that I have an issue with. Logical me knows that his behaviour is unreliable and that trust between us has been broken, but apart from all of the issues about meeting up I really liked him. Loving him just left me hurt.

I've cried a lot today because of him and F. I need to give my heart a break.