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LadyShadow · Jun 30, 2025, 12:37 PM

Having a really hard time with sleep all week. Just been overstimulated with Nova and doing all my writing projects. I have a numbness in my mouth on the left side, that feels but a sore but not. It's not my teeth or gums but like mostly on the inside of my cheek. I got some really strong Oragel to help. I am just one to ignore things until they get really bad. I honestly think it's the CPAP that caused it. I have never gotten anything like this before.

@Blueberrybook - thank you very much - I always appreciate your feedback and valuable insight. I have now concluded that me and my ex are just friends. I may be wanting and needing, but it's all wasted energy. He is in a different place where he moved on to fixing his life. It hurts a lot, and even though I was there to bring him out of his darkness I am trying not to be resentful that he left me behind in my darkness. I am enjoying time exploring something with someone else right now, but it is very casual, fun and much easier. I am blessed to have men in my life that have such close bonds within my life. My best friend in NYC is also an ex, and he has been by my side for 15 years, and my homeless friend, (not an ex) has been in my life for 25 years - so if my current ex becomes that too - it's just something I will just be grateful for.

@Nammu - that's too funny about the "coot" remark - I have to say I haven't heard that in a long time. The sleep thing has been a real issue for me too. @Blue_Bird - I hope you get some sleep soon, and kudos for you for finding ways to save money. That pizza thing is hilarious - they will just keep being late and giving you free pizza into infinity, lol. Your pet-sitting adventures are legendary @BeyondtheRainbow - I think it would be a great idea for a funny book!

I am grateful for a better mindset and more positive outlook. I am not drowning in heartbreak anymore which is the best feeling I have had in a long time. Sometimes I think of what my ex used to feel for me, and just hopeful someone would feel that for me again.