I was having an okay day, but met up with my case manager and now just kinda wanna end it. She said I can’t quit treatment, and basically that my treatment is weekly forced ER trips until they have a reason to admit me (as in, things are worse than they’ve seen them before and me be discharged and live, so basically until I’m dead or willingly go to the place that doesn’t treat eating disorders, personality disorders, or anything resulting from trauma but will give me 10mg of Ativan in a day because I yelled at the decibels my family had “regular conversation “ in a few times.