I'm going to go ape shyt. It was hot af and thundering a little at times today so I just sat at the library and read most the day, and I've heard 4 separate police sirens from 9:20pm to now at 9:46pm and I feel destruction brewing. Hopefully only self, because that is the only thing/one that can give consent to it. Kinda. Idk it feels like how having sex with someone blackout drunk but doesn't give any sign of resistance is rape. I'm blackout...something...and not able to resist myself?

edit: FIFTH SIREN!!!!!!!!!!! No fireworks or gunshots...yet...gotta wait past midnight for those midweek.


Watch at least a quart of the stuff keeping me up at night be hallucinating from not sleeping, or the sirens being really fking vivid flashbacks.