Good morning, I slept good. 8 1/2 hours. Have therapy today. Probably will be talking about trauma and doing /talking about more EMDR related stuff.

I bought a few pairs of pants for working. I’m always so reluctant to buy myself new clothes. I generally wear stuff until it is quite literally falling apart. But I needed a couple pairs of black pants for in case I start working and a couple pairs of jeans since I’ve been wearing the same two pairs of jeans for 3 years daily, those jeans are the only thing I wear whenever going somewhere. So yeah they’re starting to fall apart. So it was time to replace them. Also they didn’t fit good anymore. I hope to build up my wardrobe over time very slowly so I have new stuff to wear that isn’t so worn out that it has holes in it. Idk if it’s a self esteem issue or feeling like I don’t deserve to wear nice stuff or just childhood stuff from when I was homeless with my mom growing up and wearing crappy worn out stuff all the time that maybe it just became a habit over the years to not really care or feel like I should invest anything into clothing. But yeah I’m an adult now so I can buy my own clothes. I’d probably feel better mentally anyway wearing stuff that looks good and feels good. Instead of walking around in ratty sweatpants and shirts with holes in them.

I also got a belt because I only have one belt at the moment that is also getting worn out.

I also got new shoes recently. My friend bought them for me as a birthday gift. Cause the ones I was wearing were 3 years old with a lot of use since I used them daily and don’t have a car so walk everywhere. They’re the brand vans. They’re very nice and comfortable.

Anyway, I’m trying to put more effort into taking better care of myself