I know it's not fair I think it her SI tendency that makes her lash out. I talked to my therapist today and she said I shouldn't feel guilty because I've been a super human parent. She got her medicine and hopefully she feels better. I found a young adult psychosis program within walking distance so hopefully she can go there for med management. Some days it's hard because she's mad and lashing out but still wants someone there to watch her sleep so she's safe. I honestly thought we could beat this with love, treatment and education. I was wrong and now she suffers. Drs have always said we've gone above and beyond but that didn't solve it. My therapist reminded me things would be much worse for her if we weren't the way we were.