Presently I cope , by having my own office space. I have asked my staff to work from home, attend office 3 to 4 times a week , usually the 3 or 4 hours alone at work allows me to recharge, sometimes watching TV at work (because at home, my wife doesent allow me to put my choice of TV, and others in the house like their TV) , I have started smoking once or twice a week for the last 1 year, because calms my nerves . I recently jumped to once a day but clawed back. I occasionally drink to numb out the pain. I feel like screaming and crying but tears dont come out.

I started looking after my health , going to the gym 3 to 4 times a week( I was obese and unhealthy), wearing a hair system (I lost my beloved hair about a year ago). This is helping me keep it together but I feel its also running out of steam.

When men go through professionals, they assume there is something wrong with the man. How can you show authorities proof of chats, discussions, verbal things......

My wife came from a household where her father was very irresponsible , obnoxious , cranky always shouting, always critical of everything and everyone, shouts and not talks...swears and never is peacefull. My wife is a copy of this , always swearing, no sentence without a swear!.....I come from a very calm home, where even shouting was a big deal, I nievely didnt even know many of the wear words my wife used to say.

I feel very cornered and stuck...I cant talk to my friend, consering speaking to my emplyee and let her know what I have to deal with just incase ....