I'm listening to music to cope. I'm losing insight, I feel I'm not real.I got my injection today so hopefully it helps in a couple of days I'm not real anyway. I'm just taking up space. I cost thousands a month in services. I miss my service dog. I'm not doing well. I go to my parents house in like 15 days. this needs to go away before then. I don't know what to do T wants me to do 5,4,3,2,1 but everything isn't real. I know it's just me so I don't want to tell anyone. I hate that I have to take meds. When will I feel real again? the fireworks is getting to me. I'm trying to keep my self busy but I'm going to wake up that much worse.