Hello everyone. I hope this is the right place.

I have no motivation to find a job, although I need to. Here’s a bit of my backstory about how I got laid off:
It started when my mom died unexpectedly a week before Christmas last year. Since then, I haven't been able to function properly. Due to grief, I made many mistakes at work, including a terrible one that caused significant loss. Last month when my contract ended, they eventually laid me off. So now I’m back to job searching again.

I’ve moved back to my parents’ (dad’s) house to cut expenses. I know I should find a job immediately—I shouldn’t be a burden to my dad, and if I stay unemployed too long, it could hurt our finances (we don’t have SSI or any unemployment benefits). But I really have no motivation at all. I’ve sent a few applications, but it’s more like… I send them just to tick off the cheklist on my daily to-do list app. Sometimes I just ignore it altogether.

I don’t know why. Back then, when I was unemployed, I would find a job immediately, sending out a massive number of applications. At first, I thought it is grief. But I’ve stopped crying over her. Well… just a little sometimes.