Sorta horrible, but c'est la vie. I managed to get out of an IEA for now by setting up something with my PCP--pretty sure last time I saw her she put "overweight" as a concern (I have been to the physical part of the clinic twice this year, and both times she had a fill in). I also have been getting quite high to get through nights and kinda been feeling like a lazy fk during the day so between munchies and walking an average of 5 miles less a day, if I haven't gained anything by my appointment with my pdoc Monday, at the very least I definitely didn't lose anything close to a concerning amount in a few days.

I do feel physically pretty shytty which was kinda where getting high came in (not eating or sleeping? I could've wait a week for a Remeron script or could've just asked for some edibles--they have essentially the same effects and I'm not patient after three consecutive all-nighters), but after the first night of a glorious 7 hours of sleep the night before last, haven't slept at all. Last night I actually had to close my windows to make sure no stray fireworks would come in and not feel the air get blown as they went off like right in front of the building (of course to also hear my neighbors be more awake at 2am than I've ever heard during the day the entire time I've been here).