I still feel unreal. Which is a danger for me. I wish I felt real. I'm isolating because why interact when I'm not real. I am trying to interact here. but I don't know how to process the responses. I feel almost like everyone is ****ing with me. I know they aren't but it feels that way. I had to ask my husband if we were okay because I wasn't sure. I didn't do my app today or school. I really got to finish the week of school strong tomorrow is another day. I told my husband that I may not work and I don't want him to work too much. We're looking at a studio when Victoria moves. I'm trying to fix everyone's school plans but honestly I just want to lay down and be ignored until I'm real again. I don't want to deal with the nurse,, I don't want to go to the dentist, I don't know I'm just so messed up right now.