hi guys just thought i would fill you in on what is happening to begin with i am falling apart and dont know if i will be able to pull it together i am seeing a counsellor but i tell her a senario of what i am feeling and then i just let her think that what she is saying is changing how i feel when it does not i dont think i will see her anymore

i am not going to be online for the next three weeks as i am on holidays but i will let you know when i get back