@Crazy Hitch - Another amazing piece of artwork! Your artwork is so evocative and emotional. You are very talented!

@June08 - Sorry about your mood and SI thoughts. I really hate when SI thoughts come around I'm sure you've probably said before, but I've forgotten: What grade/age students do you teach?

@JaneOnceMore - Glad to hear your trip to the mall went well. I'm younger than you are by 10 years, but I definitely have noticed my bipolar worsening with age. I certainly did not get psychotic with mania when I was younger and when I got psychotic the first time around, I didn't black out for days on end. Now if I get psychotic, I completely blank out 4, 5, 6 days on end, remember very little at all of anything going on, it's scary. The first time it happened, I was convinced I was getting early onset Alzheimers.

@Blue_Bird - I'm glad you got yourself new pants. Sounds like you really needed them. I'm happty for you to start going to a Bible study group. I too have been neglecting my faith too long. I need to reach out to the church we were attending (until H got really hot under the collar with one of the key people there regarding politics and Dave Ramsey). It really is a nice church, just we live in a highly, highly right-wing state, most of the people you find are lean that way politically unfortunately and we do not. Still, I did do a women's study group there on the book of Esther, and it was such a wonderful experience.

@Victoria'smom - I hope the unreal feeling goes away. Is it dissociation do you think? Sometimes when I dissociate things just seem not real, sometimes I can't even feel real to myself like that my name is blueberry (for the sake of anonymity here), that I did experience things I know happened in the past, that I'm a mom, that I'm married, just none of it. Another time I had the feeling I was in an alternate reality though still myself. That was very disturbing but it thankfully ended up being the result of accidentally double dosing my meds and while waiting around for hours in the ER, the feeling started to dissipate and I told H let's just go home, I think a nap might help too, so that's what we did. But I'm sorry you have such a hard time with things.

@MuddyBoots - Did you take anything to make your stomach feel bad? Otherwise it probably needs some food, at least try saltine crackers if you can get them easily, maybe a stomach med and this week press more about the GI referral. Not sure bringing up the GI ref. will help but maybe start being a PIA about it and perhaps something may happen? I'm glad you will be getting bloodwork as I worry about your electrolytes with your ED. Be sure they check your iron levels too.

@Moose72 - It has to be so scary having a blood clot in your lungs. It would terrify me. I didn't realize they could take so long to break up.