So I'm getting use to her coming. Saw my new T today. We talked about why I'm afraid of the hospital. I totally blanked out on the times I had SH thoughts since I last Thursday. So I see him Friday, I need skills for going to my parents house. There's going to be about 20 people in a 3 bedroom house for over a week. I get really messed up sleeping in my old room, luckily someone else is in there and I'm on the couch. But they're all triggering, hell being in that town is triggering. I can't get out of the trip. I've tried.