...s (arguments --as in points for her side of the topic of debate)

I know my PCP doesn't know I am as masochistic as it gets because I've seen her like three times, but my pdoc should understand that telling me she's worried about an impending medical crisis/mortality is essentially encouraging me.

Here's the thing, even IP the doc was like "this can get deadly real fast" and I'm like, "???? It's been too long for me to say "fast" (no pun intended ) when it comes to dying. I'm thinking fast death is like getting in a rollercoaster crash and being dead on impact. Not over a decade of something that was bound to develop in someone given their history that went entirely unnoticed for a long while but just changed presentation a lot and is now the ruling thing."

I get it, people are supposed to be afraid of dying. I'm afraid of being threatened to go to the hospital and afraid of causing more trouble than my blood is worth more.