I've been sick almost 50 years with little relief. I have trouble relating to myself and others and severe mood disorder. I've been better since starting 2 meds in hospital in April but not 100 percent. My NP says I'm chronic and have to live like this. She is one of better Drs I've seen but she downplays my problems (like all doctors). I told her my motivation fluctuates real bad and she said "You're doing more than when I first saw you". She doesn't really care about my quality of life like all doctors I've seen. She told me I'm autistic and schizoaffective. I was shocked when I heard that. I hate living like this. I want to be like everyone else and enjoy my life. I'm not a statistic on a chart. I've seen some really bad doctors in my life and I don't want to change Drs.