I really don't know what to say, it's such a horrible subject I'm so sorry this happened to you or any other child (it makes me sick to my stomach that a human being is capable of such a horrendous crime). I don't think a child should have to be brought into the case or know anything about it at all. The trauma of the rape is enough they shouldn't have to re-live it. As for your soul, I believe your soul can't die, that was a horrible statement. As for the perps, their earthly punishment is the least of their worries. You should never feel guilty for the fate of your abuser, it is in no way your fault, his actions decided his fate. Stay strong and hang in there.