Apologies for the late reply, but thank you so much for doing so Una.

Firstly I always take photos of everything. I currently have over 15,000+ photos on my phone. Going through my camera roll, I found that I had more screenshots and a picture of F I had taken which I thought I had deleted. My brain needed to make a timeline and I could because of the old images, I asked him for a session in Nov 2023. Waited to hear back after a week and then I blocked him. I later found out he had been ill enough to be hospitalized before Christmas. So that could explain the no response.

Then I reached a point where I stopped hating him and just went on with my own life and I no longer checked in on what he was up to.

I cried on the bus about him today, but I was cycling through every stage.

I start volunteering at a new charity tomorrow and starting a new non clinical job soon might help.