My therapy session today was a disappointment but i didn't expect much from this "community center" org as i've been there once before in-crisis and the woman was actually offensive about my weight. This time i wrote on the intake form that if she commented on my weight i would leave, so my boundary was set before we sat down. At least it wasn't damaging.

I talked far too much and i don't really blame the therapist for not being able to make sense of the mess i spouted off. I only identified one clear issue, bipolar rage, and she only said to use the STOP technique which i have tried before without success.

She didn't have anything to say about my frustration with men, which was vexing. She DID point out that socializing in the lobby might not be worthwhile as people are reluctant to invite you to their home. Fair enough, i am reluctant to invite anyone to mine.

She gave me a number for a housekeeping support org to help with the backlog of stuff to be done. Once it's all caught up i can deal with it. I can do ONE load of laundry a week, i just can't do TEN loads of laundry today or any day.

The home support org also has a social event, usually a luncheon, once a month so that might be an opportunity for social connection. She suggested a walking group and a gym but those are not possible or practical as i can't walk more than fifty meters and we have a gym here in the building which i am having success working out in, four days in a row now!!!

So that was just a few hours of an unproductive investment of time, but it was free, and no big surprise. The "family service center" therapist will call in one to two months. I'll wait for that org to pursue therapy. No sense going back to today's org. They are not helpful.

Well, as far as finding a good therapist, the only way to be sure to fail is not to try. Raspberrytorte said it took her about ten tries to find a good therapist. I hope it won't take ME that many, but the search is on.