Im ok. I need to talk about it. I cant avoid it (the feelings). I have 2 therapists. I go three hours a week. Actually talking about it on this sight is keeping me grounded. I dont watch the news or anything. I just followed the story to see the outcome. This is good for me to be here. Just because my case is old doesnt mean its over. I have to do parole hearing letters when he gets rearrested and I have the flashbacks and nightmeres. Im ok. Thanks for replying. I need to know people hear me and that helps. Im staying put for a while on this sight and I will be ok. I called my emdr therapists and left a message. It was worse when I kept everything inside. Thanks for reading this and replying.