So I want off all my meds. I can't because of the nurse and my dr. I don't think the gabipenten is helping me. I'm numb, empty, my T wants to figure out what fills that emptiness, H comes with me to my appointment so he may tell on me but I don't want to say it. My appointment for the study is coming up too.So I have to be careful because of that. I'm trying to stay under the radar because of the questions they ask. My T wants me to do 30 minutes of school a day So I don't feel like a burden. I have to find a way to not lie but fly under the radar.I can't get caught because I leave in a week. I don't trust T yet and the study dr isn't my dr. He's just there to collect data. I'm not sure what my nurse would do. I'm just a mess and I didn't convey that to my T.

Told H because he'd feel betrayed if he figured out on his own.