I guess I should explain since I am on the honesty wagon. After this happened my mom was sent to prison. I got sent to foster homes and I never really talked about it with anyone. My sister and I would say something to each other everyonce in a while. I had no idea what happened to this guy. He pled. I have been working on this really hard for about 4 months. My mom called me a liar even after the guy was caught attacking another child. A month later the cops busted the door down and arrested her. She is mentally ill (schizophrenic) and an alcoholic. So this has been stuck in side me. Silence almost killed me. Im talking now even if its around the attack. Its still not silent. I just needed support. Im wanting to have a good support system. I want to get better.
When the lawyer said it would be better to have died then live with the psychological truama, that is so wrong. I love my life. I have great therapists and I am connecting to people. The world can say mean things but I know the truth. Yes the damage is huge and life altering but life can be good again. When people understand you and listen to you and sit by you. It builds that hope in connection that was taken. Im sad now but it will pass. It will pass and light will fill what was dark and unspoken now that it was spoken.

Thanks vetswife ((HUGS))