Hey everyone. I feel so vulnerable and anxious talking about this, so please be kind. I have a large puppy who is about to be one this coming Sunday. I love him so much, though he has been triggering my trauma. I have had him since he was 4 months and he is a rescue. He is so happy, learns well, and we just started with a new trainer. I have CPTSD. When he sniffs me in certain places, does not listen to me and is acting stubborn, and will not settle down like at night when he wants to play I get frustrated. Mostly with myself because I did not start training him properly like I should have. His breeds which are German Shepherd, Great Pyrenees, and Belgian Malinios mix can make him stubborn, yet also super smart with training. It is also hard with my daily chronic pain and I am doing this all on my own with really no support network right now. I also just started with a new therapist and will talk to her about this during our next session. Can anyone else relate or have any suggestions? Thank you.