It was a good day but too stressful. I am feeling rattled and ragged now and that's not ideal with bedtime so close. Just can't seem to get the hang of managing my stress level. Maybe i will just have to get used to a higher stress level?

It was a mistake having F down for a beer late in the afternoon. I can only be active in the mornings. It was fun, but i wound things up after about 40 minutes. It was a bit discouraging that she forgot things i had told her last time.

She has a learning disability ~ it might have been that. She's smart tho, doing her master's degree. It was fun but too late in the day. Or maybe it was because it was inside, as it's blistering hot out today. It's so much more pleasant socializing outside in the dog park.

I enquired about hormone replacement therapy for increasingly intense bipolar episodes in menopause. My doctor says there is no evidence that it's useful. So that was a disappointment.

I'm not eligible for the housekeeping support service the therapist referred me to yesterday. It's only for the PHYSICALLY disabled. That's ableism. I'm furious with the therapist because i almost never ask for help, and to have her give me a bum lead is demoralizing.

I find the referrals for help are usually bum leads. I wish helping professionals would stick to offering their OWN help, being that that's all they really know about. I wish they wouldn't say, "go here, go there, they can help you."

I find helping professionals want to believe that there is help out there, but the truth is, there really is no help out there. Raising my hopes only to have them dashed is an act of cruelty and a waste of my time.

I hit all eight of my time-targets today by within an hour, so even tho the day was messy, i managed to stick to doing things in order, if not on the exact precise time.

Enjoyed my workout again this morning, and have new leg warmers to wear tomorrow. Lots to look forward to!!!

I think the unusually high stress-level is just Summer. Being outside is very joyful, the warm days and sun are a delight, and i am having a great time socializing with my neighbors in the dog park. But even good stress is still stress. The heat today was intense, too.