I have to go because all my sisters and their family is going and my dad is 75. I know I'll have a lot of work to do before and after. Luckily I'm going to tell my therapists and I see him 2x a week. I'm worried my psychosis will flare up more then it has now. The people there are better. Yes they were abusive when I was younger but now they aren't because I'm an adult. It's the actual house that brings back all the memory. I walk into the house and all my ****ed upness memories come back. I've forgiven them for there ****ed upness but I guess reality I haven't forgiven my ****ed upness.