@Autumn88 - Don't feel the need to apologize for posting your feelings or writing a negative post. Your feelings are important, and recovery is so hard, it's easy to fall into ED mode, I understand. I too have social anxiety. I don't have any friends except my 2 sisters, but thankfully they are very good friends I can talk candidly with. And I have my husband too but there are times I just don't want to worry him or things he doesn't understand because he is not a woman and doesn't understand how hard it is for women to be looking to models, TV & movie actresses all size 0, 00 or even smaller in some cases.

I did a long jog this morning, but I came in before I completely exhausted myself, it's something I guess. Running did feel good after 2 days off from it (did pilates yesterday & Friday), plus walked a ton yesterday at the aquarium/rainforest park. I really need to keep inputting pilates into my workouts in place of running so I stay at a decent weight. Also, pilates is less demanding on the knee & hip joints, which I've had problems with in the past.