I don't know about the guy i connected with today. I'm feeling triggered about my brother. Maybe we are TOO MUCH alike? In a lot of ways, i like to socialize with people who are dissimilar to me. Young people who have no baggage and haven't been broken by life yet. Those who do not know, and do not care. I have no plans to call him. He probably is too scared of me to call me.

I thought i wanted someone to know my heart. Now that i've found a friend who could, i'm not so sure. It's so much easier with someone where an intimate connection is not possible, and i can steer the whole relationship. I felt i was too vulnerable today. It makes me uneasy.

Well, at least i was mindful, and hastily excused myself when i started to feel exposed today. It was sort of inappropriate to talk so intimately in the drop-in. I don't know. Maybe i'll see if there is an activity around town for us to do. I'm not really interested in coffee with him. I don't want to get into the dead brothers again.