Thanks so much for responding to my post. I am trying to not read too much in to that dream. In the most part it seems fairly straightforward, acknowledging my wife's frustration with me seems likely, although I have never dressed as I was in the dream . But I do wonder if it was my subconscious giving me a bit of a nudge, telling me to confront what is inside me, stuff that is deeper than my preference for female clothing. It brought back thoughts I have had previously about being given a chance to magically change my sex, and how I would want to do so without hesitation.

I feel that at 59 the boat has probably sailed past me if ever I had the courage to push forward with therapy/HRT etc. This is not least because I would imagine that HRT would not be compatible with the medication I must take for Atrial Fibrillation.

My reason for posting is a hope that someone else would maybe have followed even just a slightly similar path to myself, and is able to say how they have navigated it. Trawling up all my past memories, and then trying to make sense of them has made me fear that I am just overthinking everything which I find upsetting which once again I am hiding away.

I guess what I am really hoping for is someone to talk to.