@LadyShadow - It's hard to always remember all the blessings in our lives, to see the glass half full and not half empty. I'm sorry you struggle so much with the ups & downs. It's not always easy to keep our faith in the forefront of our minds. The times we struggle though, I think those are the times God holds us closest to Him; we just need to remember He is always with us especially when we feel alone and lost.