Thanks LT! It went extremely well. We did a long hug and then we sat on the floor. We exchanged some items: she recharged my blanket, I gave her her block back, I gave her our healing crystal back, and I gave her a stuffed plant (a plant neither of us can kill!). Then we did our normal check ins while holding hands. We processed some dreams. We did breathing exercises. She helped me reorient to the room. She showed me her dissertation bound in a book and told me a little about that (she published an article about her dissertation and won an award!). We talked a little about her kids. I normally address them as he/she, but I told her I need to use their names. So we talked about that. We talked some about our relationship and some about her leave. I apologized to her again for how I treated her, and again she said I’m already forgiven. She reminded me that my pain is valid. What she did hurt me. She wants to own her part too. While I’m not denying my pain, I do feel that my reactions were way overboard. We did a question (our childhood nickname), we said I love you’s, hugged, and said goodbye.

I see her again on Friday, my birthday. That was one of the reasons she came back to in person this week, so we can have my birthday together.

It felt so good having her back. It also felt surreal. And it was still a hard session. But I’m happy she’s back. Hopefully, we will have the time to work through all these things before something else major happens. Though her method for bc is much more dependable now, so there shouldn’t be another surprise like that.