a nasty incident with my daughter the past wkend has left me with "fantasys", i hate that word but that is what T insists on calling them...she says I am left with the fear and rage from teh original incident and its triggering past events in my life...that when I say to her why cant she see what I see she can see i'm distressed but then asks me what i make of other people not being able to see what i am seeing? i goes that it makes me feel even more lonelier with it then ever...t says she thinks its a delima for me because if she says that she doesn't see what i see because it isn't real, then that makes me feel lonelier, but if she was to say she did see what i am seeing then that would make it worlse for me...but why do i feel so angry that she will not enter what i am seeing??? why do i feel so badly i need her to enter it with me?...why is it i am staying in it and not taking her hand of escape so too speak?...i feel betrayed by her because she wont see what i see...but why?...
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