I can't sleep. I only took my klonopin tonight because I was afraid of sleeping through an urgent bathroom run. I have been trying to sleep since about 2-3 AM but I feel jittery and hungry and just can't get there. Every time I almost get to sleep I have to run to the bathroom. I'm really past the running stage but too afraid to trust that. I tend to pee a lot when I'm nervous and that's what my bathroom trips are now. Frustrating.

My mom is supposed to call me about 7:45 so I can pack things up and be ready when she gets here to take me to the hospital. I'm supposed to arrive at 9 and my procedures start at 10. I really hope I can sleep a bit. Otherwise I'll be up until 2-3 PM by the time I get home, assuming I wake up easily. My last colonoscopy/EGD I woke up on the way to recovery. They were talking about someone with Crohn's disease and I mumbled "I have Crohn's??" and then was told to rest and we'd talk later. I did not have Crohn's.

I guess if I don't sleep at least it's not that much longer to go now. I just want something to eat. And to be home in my own bed. With my AbbyCat. Small things.