Last night as I was texting with new guy and scrolling Instagram, I saw a post that made me stop in my tracks. It was of a man screaming at his female partner, and her, with tears in her eyes walking away telling him "goodbye" and "I'm done". It jolted me right back to my marriage and I freaked out. I don't know why I had to see this post just as I was texting with new guy, but it made me think twice about getting involved too quickly. My ex husband and I fell in love within one month. It's only been a few weeks with new guy and he says he is falling for me and vice versa.

I cannot get involved in yet another toxic relationship and must be very careful and cautious. My marriage made me incredibly sick, it put me in the hospital, and I lost myself and my whole life. It's taken two years after my divorce to rebound.

Was that post simply meant to be a reminder to be cautious? And to take it slowly? Even remembering those scenes where my ex husband screamed at me, chasing me around the house and exploding on me, makes me cringe.

And new guy sent me a song the other day that just so happened to be my wedding song, "Waste". The song is about wasting your time with someone, and I certainly felt my marriage was a waste of time, although I learned a valuable lesson.

I need to be more cautious than I am being right now. That's what the message means.