No sooner did i swear off men than i went on a date. He had a very funny, powerful online presence but in real life he did not even make eye-contact. Wha? I felt ugly, like he couldn't bear to look at me. I described our lovely gym and he made some crack about "did i use it?" Jerk. He was short, about 5'5" and had a belly which he must have sucked in, in all his pictures. He was dressed sloppily. He complained about the price of coffee, obviously poor. After five minutes of being ignored by my own date, i had enough and left. My last date three years ago was so warm with immediate bear hug and holding my hand... This guy did not even so much as WINK at me.

Well at least i found out right away that he's not at all like his online self. Only way to tell is to meet them. I've deleted my profile and blocked him in Messenger. I need to meet someone in real life. He's active in our city's amateur comedy circuit, so i just pray i don't end up being part of his act.

It might sound kind of low, but my general feeling is that he was also too white. I find the Middle-Eastern and African men are enthusiastic about me as i dress very feminine and they like it a lot even tho i am fat. But the white men are too brain-washed by the mass media which is a tool of the rich thru which they force the idea that only excessively thin women are worthwhile down our throats, an idea which purposely oppresses women, so that they can exploit us financially. It's unnatural and unhealthy and insulting and this guy today was just a pawn, a toady of that ubiquitous dynamic.