I tried ECT last time I was IP (I did agree to it) and it didn't go well. I got really manic after the first round and flipped out at the doc and accused him of rape. I was bummed because I was supposed to feel fatigued and lethargic and instead I wanted to punch everyone and everything in my path while riding a lightning bolt to Satan's locker room. I can't even do ECT outpatient apparently so no point in trying again.