(((((((((((( Troy )))))))))))) safe hugs to you.

I feel badly for how you were treated at the other site and I'm very sorry that you've gone into a tailspin as such because of it. It doesn't feel good, that much I do know. Triggers and such can bring us back to the original wound....so close....so painful

Unfortunately, in our trek of healing, we are brought back there more than we want to be. Each time we are brought back there, we have another opportunity to learn from it and to heal and grow. I liken it to a dance of sorts....a few steps forward, a couple steps backwards, sometimes dancing in place, then a few more steps forward.

Stepping out of your box, your comfort zone (which many times is not really all that comfortable but what you are used to more than anything) is a very difficult thing to do. Opening the door and peering around it to see what's on the other side is sometimes all one can accomplish for a time. The important thing is to continue with the process....even when so very difficult and scary and painful. Baby steps.....that's all it takes to make progress Troy, baby steps.

I too, hope you do not leave PC. Even if you can't post for awhile and just sit here and read or feel a connection with folks here....there is absolutely nothing wrong with doing that. When the waters feel safe again....dip your toe in and check it out. Take things in your time, no one here is rushing you or pushing you. I hope you will take some time to reconsider Troy.

Wishing you all the best Troy.....we do care!


sabby