Thank you, @Blueberrybook, for your acceptance, understanding, and validation.

I did listen to my body today-to an extent.

I still, even after several stints in treatment know, to even try to have 3 regulated meals and two to three snacks. And the overwhelming " voice " of the ED wars against the healthy part of my pysche which realises how quickly I detriorate st my age.

So..I ate tonight, as much as I could even physically handle ( anxiety having stolen my appetite until after x hours of having eaten),

I hope you allow your body rest, and the intense pressure to exercise excessively is something you might overcome.

( Only ever having been plagued with this manifestation of my ED, I can only imagine what a struggle it must be...but you are so wonderfully self aware. I have heard a lot if good things about pliates it is so good to hear you say you have turned to this practice to relax and get in touch with your body...)

I am so glad you have your sisters to confuse in, and your husband, however I understand how hard it must be to fully open up to him.

I hope today wa a good day for you,and sincerely I thank you again, for listening and caring.