Good morning all, have a meeting with my supportive housing program manager in about an hour. It’s just our monthly meeting.

Then at 2pm I’m teaching that rock painting class. A little nervous but it’ll be fine. The program manager will be in there with me to help me out with anything I need

I slept pretty good considering I didn’t go to bed till after midnight. I decided to put some chicken drumsticks in the crockpot in buffalo sauce around 8pm and they took 4 hours on high to cook. After that I went to bed then woke up 7 1/2 hours later around 7:45am.

Glad I have therapy tomorrow morning.
A little worried about tomorrow because my dose of Lamictal goes up to 200mg and I know any med changes usually bring on paranoia and panic attacks about my meds poisoning me. After I’m on the med changes for awhile it goes away but the initial change aways terrifies me. I’m still scarred mentally from when I ended up in the icu for 8 days with seizures , and kidney failure from really severe lithium toxicity. That happened when I was 19 and I have yet to get over my cautiousness around meds and it’s made me develop a fear of meds and med changes in general.

Anyway, I’ll do what I can to distract myself the first few days of the increase then after that I should be fine when I realize it hasn’t killed me.

Then that’s it, I’ll be at the full target dose of Lamictal Friday , then in August we stop the trileptal. I’m down to 600 mg from my original dose of 1500 mg. So we can just stop it after my next psychiatrist appointment mid August. Then that’s it for med changes. Finally. It’s been a long process. Rest of my meds stay the same and I’m good to go.