@LadyShadow I hope you are feeling better.

I know you've said you are not on much medication and that you are afraid of ADs. Have you ever taken an AP for depression? I am on Seroquel for depression and while I'm also on an AD it works really well. The AD dose was maxed out and I was still depressed. Then my pdoc added just a tiny bit of Seroquel and I felt a lot better very quickly. I actually have been better than ever before since starting the Seroquel about 18 months ago. I haven't had a major episode since and that's unheard of for me.

I just hate hearing how hard you are on yourself and how hard you try to feel better.

Have fun at GalaxyCon (I think that's the right one?)!