I felt like I had to burn myself, lately I feel like things that have happened to me are my fault and that I needed to hurt myself in order for my pain to go away- does that make sense but at the same time I think a little of it was impulse because right after I burned myself I cut- Im so lonely and my moods are all over the place lately. Burning didn't do what I wanted it to do, I didn't feel a release like I do with cutting- I guess I can't even SI right.