Thanks Blueberry, I did actually get involved in a videogame today which helped and some word search puzzles too. I do have coloring books, I need to use them more. I managed to get through the dissociation and panic today again without taking klonopin , and now I feel better. Also talking to my friends on Snapchat helped too.

Currently watching a cozy holiday movie on Netflix.

I made a big list of coping skills for dissociation and panic attacks in my notes app on my tablet.

I need to get some more acrylic paint. Gonna get some this week. Running low on several colors.

A little concerned about tomorrow because I have a lot going on throughout the day and then my volunteer shift on top of that so I might be feeling overwhelmed by time my shift starts at 6pm. Am a little worried I’ll start dissociating on the way to my volunteer shift. Hoping that doesn’t happen though. If it does I’ll just need to push through and deal with it. If I could get through the dissociation and managed to stop it today there’s no reason I can’t get through it tomorrow. Idk part of it is exposure therapy though. I need to expose myself to anxiety inducing situations and learn to sit with the feelings rather than avoiding them. Because avoiding them just backfires and makes my anxiety even worse and I start avoiding things even more.